the pang of sadness and the pang of loneliness may hit, i won't give up. Come what may, i won't give up, i won't.

''how long must I wrestle with my thoughts?
I trust in Your Unfailing Love
my heart rejoices in Your salvation.
i will sing the Lord’s Praise,
for He has been good to me.''

It's mother's day weekend. I went to get a hand accessory from fourskin before heading to school. I'm glad mother likes it.

My grandmother is someone who is very dear to me. I stayed with her and she took care of me for 2 years, when I was at the age of 4 and 5. I was extremely down, frustrated with self and feeling so guilty not too long ago. I rang her on one particular night and shared with her stuff. Even though I have been a major disappointment, she encouraged me by saying  this in Cantonese, ''you must have confidence in yourself. He will forgive you, He will wash away your sins. you are His child.'' She went on to tell me indirectly that I am her favourite grandson. Honestly, I strongly feel that I've massively let my grandmother down especially given the fact that I am her favourite grandson.

I received a reply on fb when I least expected it. Felt extremely awful at that point of time, perhaps because I know I don't deserve......

These made my day:


1. words of encouragement from NN.


2. ''Tts not nursing gathering. Is frends gathering :) we hv to meet up with fren. Isn't it chap? Good frens r worth to meet up. Keep in contact.''  (thank you,KM)


3. ''It is because of you that my self-esteem increased this year and I started to socialise more.'' (thank you)

My brother came back from India earlier in the week, I was glad to hear that he managed to recover quickly.

Earlier in the week, one of my friends asked if he could borrow money from me. I was alright with it though honestly, I was already feeling the pinch. On Friday while I was having my lunch, mother asked if she could have dinner with me after service on saturday, in another words, dinner treat! Coincidence? More like God-cidence! ;)  

I had dinner with mum at Olive Vine after service, Olive Vine is one of my favourite eateries. After dinner, mother said she wanted to try Gelato so she treated me to my favourite non-dairy mango ''ice cream'', fantastic!

Just as I was about to head to Raffles City Shopping Centre supermarket, I met Kumar, I was very impressed with the fact that he took the time to bring his little cousins and sister out, family man! On a serious note, he's a good and nice chap. I managed to speak to Nicholas too! =)

Yesterday, I came across this, ''I don't know, it just seems as though people will never get over how one's past might be. And no matter how much a person has changed, people refuse to let go of their past, and it continually comes back to haunt them. But yeah, I think it's really unfair, how people don't give others a second chance to show that they have changed. Or that people don't even bother giving others a chance to show them who they really are, what kind of person they are, before they jump to conclusions about them. I don't think it's fair for me to judge others without getting to know them in person first, irregardless of whatever horrible gossip/rumours that are being passed around anywhere else for that matter. I do believe in second chances.'' There are still some nice ones in that generation after all. I also came across another and it really got me thinking.








''I love you'', how many can say that they mean it whenever they say those three words? To me, these words are of tremendous value. Sadly, these are words many tend to say very casually these days. It should never be used unless you know and you know that you genuinely love that person. I've got to admit, I remember I made that mistake years back. Frankly speaking, yes, there have been countless of times I failed to love... I might not have been the most patient or the nicest around. Besides I am not the easiest to love as well. At the same time, I've acknowledged the fact that I've been dreadful but I have been really trying and I am trying to live out His Word. I want to live out His Word. Even when I've been dreadful, He still loves. To be very frank, there were many times I thought He has given up on me but no, He has been faithful. I am thankful to Father G's for His mercy and grace. His love never fails.






-I'm not perfect but I keep trying, cause that's what I said I would do from the start-